Rahima Abdullah

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When I am with my Danish friends, I feel 100% Danish. "You are Danish - your values are Danish," they say. But when I hear the politicians, and read newspapers, I feel foreign and less worthy than other people. I am treated as a social outcast.

I worry about my unknown future. The politicians say that those who can and will can stay. I've used all my strength on that. But the paradigm shift hits everyone - also those who can and will, so I don't feel like my classmates. They can dream. I can't, because I may not be here in two years. It affects my relationship with them. When they talk about the future, I try to avoid the subject. And it means I can't talk to them about everything, because I don't have the same rights as them, as I was born in Syria and they were born in Denmark.

Sometimes I feel my soul is completely in tatters. I've been here for four years. I think in Danish, I dream in Danish, I speak Danish. The more you become integrated, the more you feel at home, and the harder it is to return. I couldn’t handle returning to Syria and start all over again. In Syria, I lost everything. Politicians say refugees must return when peace is restored. They must understand that it's not that simple.
I will fight for the right to stay, for myself and for other refugees - even those who are yet to arrive. And there are many who support me and back me up. I feel I have a responsibility, and I will not abandon the fight and walk out.

Rahima Abdullah / 18 / female / single / at high school / Herning / family reunification from Syria in 2015 / temporary residence permit